Life's Ups and Downs

Leona Lewis - Better In Time

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Go in, come in, thought I heard a knock
Who's there? No one, thinking that I deserved it
Now I realize that I really didn't know
You didn't notice, you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is, I'ma be okay

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too, oh yeah
(It'll all get better in time)
Even though I really loved you
I'm gonna smile 'cause I deserve to
(It'll all get better in time)

How could I turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me?
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings?

If I'm dreaming, don't wanna let, hurt my feelings
But that's the path, I believe in
And I know that, time will heal it
You didn't notice, you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is, I'ma be okay

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go so I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is, I'll be fine without you
Yes, I will

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too, oh
(It'll all get better in time)
Even though I really loved you
I'm gonna smile 'cause I deserve to, yes, I do
(It'll all get better in time)

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too, yeah
(It'll all get better in time)

And even though I really loved you
I'm gonna smile 'cause I deserve to

Disarm it.

To the boy: When someone travels all the way hoping that they'll meet you, you should at least give them a chance. Give them a true chance. Hear what she wanted to say. It doesn't cost you much to hear any kind of explanation from someone who travels all the way to see you.

If you feel like the feelings have faded away, tell her. Don't you think it's quite unfair when you push and pull her anytime you want? You know that she'll be there for you whenever you needed her. Just because you know she will, you played her.

You pushed her as far as you want, and when she started to walk away from your life, you pulled her back. Just because you know she will walk towards you. Just because you know she will.. How cruel is that? Don't be so pathetic.

She made this one mistake and you punished her like she has killed someone. Dude, you’re acting like you never lie before. You lied for zillion times and she forgave you. She gave you chances like it was the first time you lied to her. But, she stupidly forgave you and she didn't give any shit about what your exes might think about her forgiving you that time.

She started to think, should she fight for this love or disarm?

To the girl: You know what, at first you will feel afraid and petrified. You don't want to let him go. You wanted to stay beside him as long as you can. You wanted to hold him as long as you can. You tried your best to make everything get into the place, and you spent many nights wondering what went wrong? You thought you have done everything to make it perfect. But there’s only one thing that you haven’t done yet. DO SOMETHING FOR YOURSELF. Don’t do it for anybody else, love yourself first, only then you find somebody to love.

Why the hell did you do everything to please others? Don’t you pity yourself? Don’t you think it’s quite stupid to do almost everything for someone who doesn't even love you?

DISARM THE LOVE, GIRL. DISARM IT.

8:21pm 10th February 2014.

Lost in love

Are we really breaking up now?
Or are we just separated for a moment, like how we promised to be?
This separation is already enough for me
Why haven't I heard from you?

I love you, I can wait for you endlessly
When you come to find me
I can smile at you, always

Am I still unable to accept it
That you turned around and announced our separation
I just want to accept the truth as it is
What are you doing now?

I love you, I can wait for you endlessly
When you come to find me
I can smile at you, always

Now that sadness slowly accumulates
Although I know that you really left
I can only hope to be nicer to you when you are back

Why am I behaving so stupidly
The time that you gave me
Is just time for us to even things out between us

I'll not be sad
For the belief that you'll come to find me
The belief makes my love stronger
And gives me the energy to live on

T&T xoxo

Just not the same anymore

Well, I guess he's just not the same anymore.
He is not the same guy that will call me back after 10 seconds hang up on me.
Lately, he's being bored by me. Too lazy to cool me down. Too fed up to make me feel better. Maybe he feels it is too tiring to make things better, to make me feel better.
He said I repeat mistakes over and over again. Maybe that's fed him up.
But it makes me wondering, why now? Why not before? Why he can't see my efforts?
Can't he see I'm trying to make he feel better? There's too much tears pouring down because of you lately. Do you enjoy it? Do you like to make me feel that way?

Cheater, I don't need you.

Things had started to change lately - he was going to a 'friend's' place a little too often, you found him glued to the phone a little too much, and most of your dinner plans were getting canceled, of course, as he had to do some assignments. But it never occurred to you until one day you hacked his facebook and read his conversation with another girl. Maybe you called him and cursed or maybe you just changed your number and never called him back.

Whatever it is that you do, catching your boyfriend cheating on you hurts. You are in a state of shock, disgust and confusion. You are wondering what went wrong when everything seemed so perfect. Was it you or it was him? You might want to rip off his head, scream out loud or maybe you just want to cry. But, however difficult it might seem at the moment, the only solution is to accept the reality and move on with your life. So, you just have to find another man and live your life to the fullest to have a ray of hope to start your life anew.

The hardest part of loving someone is knowing when to let go, and knowing when to say goodbye. You'll hate to see the one you love happy with somebody, but it'll hurts you more to see the one you love unhappy with you. Moving on is simple, but what you leave behind that makes it so difficult. However, you can just forget who hurt you yesterday, but never forget who loves you tenderly today.

Inspired by A, Q and P.
XOXO.